passion versus reality
I've been struggling and searching myself lately trying to reconcile the things I'm passionate about and the things I'm actually doing.
I could spend a lot of time going into the details, but that would only make for an excessively long post and dilute the basic idea. I'll try and highlight the whole dilemma.
I want to create a camp. A camp that embodies authentic community, service, faith, art, worship, a love for the out-of-doors and "the building-up of people." I have had a plan for six or seven years to get to that point. I am in the next-to-last part of that plan and am not sure how to move from where I am to what it is that I want to do.
I have fears that I will get stuck in this stage and not see the realization of my dream, or that my plan was flawed and I'm not supposed to be in this stage at all. I feel some pressure from life and people I know to pursue this stage of my plan -- because I told people and myself that this stage was important and part of the plan.
I'm afraid that I'll get caught focusing on the ladder rather than climbing it to where I was originally headed. I'm also afraid that if I fail at this stage that I can't realize my dream -- becuase this stage may be necessary in order to reach my dream.
Separately, I'm afraid that people will see me as a flake for not completing this stage if I bypass it (for me, this stage is only part of the process, not the goal).
So I feel stuck in a moment and I can't get out of it...
When I get to this place, I ask for Divine intervention. "God, give me some indication of what to do or which direction to head. I don't want to settle for where I'm at, but I don't want to waste my life pursuing things that take me away from what I should do. I'll keep on this path so I don't sit still, but could you put someone or some circumstance in my way to let me know if this is right or not?"
posted by John Daharsh @ 10:07 AM
1 Comments:
7 years ago, you were raising support attending ADL meetings, swimming in pools with LTC people, and serving at WCA conferences. 1 year ago, you were with 2 children, working for someone else and living in wisconsin. today, you are living in the state you've always talked about, in the nature that breathes life into your soul, you have skills that bring home the bacon and God's hand has led you to where you are today and he'll continue to guide. obedience, faithfulness are required. i don't have any answers to your questions, but the bottom line is that i believe in you. in the meantime, take care of your business at hand with your family and building a foundation in your home in which to support and sustain any kind of potential long term vision. not saying that you don't have it, but until the right pieces fall into place, your greatest ministry is that of your heart and family. happy belated father's day by the way to a man who would do anything for his family, even kill a mouse to protect them.
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